Chronically Cautious

[Verse 1]

I gamble big for the smallest part, I know it's not

Enough to change what's been going on, but it's all I've got

Misjudge and switch up, from target to target

Miscalculate what it is that I want

Spread my wings, writer's block

Dead by things made up

[Chorus]

And if I'm honest

I think I'm beginning to question how much I want this

Overloaded serial stresser, I'm sitting nauseous

Panic on a loop in my head, I'm chronically cautious

To keep it simple

I think I've been willingly following every impulse

Picturing a future, then tossing it out the window

Suffocate the fire I started right when it kindles

[Verse 2]

The source of my serotonin is only digital

My reality's fading, I guess it's typical

Switch back, it's mismatchеd dopamine

Whiplash, it hits fast, controlling me

I sit in silencе, all beat up

Death by a thousand cuts

[Chorus]

So, if I'm honest

I think I'm beginning to question how much I want this

Overloaded serial stresser, I'm sitting nauseous

Panic on a loop in my head, I'm chronically cautious

To keep it simple

I think I've been willingly following every impulse

Picturing a future, then tossing it out the window

Suffocate the fire I started right when it kindles

[Outro]

If I'm honest

Oh, if I'm honest