Monsters

I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind
I try to run, I try to hide
But they still come back every night
Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters
Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters
I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind

And I don't even wanna sleep in my bed now (bed now)
Most days in my head now (uh)
Kinda feel I been lost and I'm checked out
Keep it real, I been livin' on the edge now (yeah)
I admit it, I been trapped in my own hell (own hell)
On my back, but I won't bail
And I hate it where I'm at, but I won't dwell (yeah)
I just hope I don't go back to my old self (uh)

Wish you knew what I seen, but I won't tell
Let you go first
I've been tryna find me on a soul search (uh)
Lost things that I love, but it don't hurt (what?)
Tried the therapy shit, but it don't work (no)
Hopin' I can find me with my own words
But I know I gotta let my soul decide
Think about peace when I close my eyes
Only I can save me from my own demise (own demise...)

I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind
I try to run, I try to hide
But they still come back every night
Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters
Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters
I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind (yeah)

I know you wonder how I'm rich, but I'm still lost (still lost)
Lotta wounds and I'm still scarred (yeah)
Money never mean shit when you're so broke
God seems so close, but He's so far (far)
Only thing is my kids that I live for
Kinda wonder what the fuck I got rich for (yeah)
Have you ever seen an angel with a pitchfork? (Huh?)
Ever wonder why you ever got picked for? (Uh)

Only shot five times, but I missed four
So you go first
I've been tryna find me on a soul search (yeah)
Lost things that I love, but it don't hurt (no)
All the therapy shit really don't work (yeah)
Say I need self-love, but my own words
But I know I gotta let my soul decide (uh)
Think about peace when I close my eyes
Only I can save me from my own demise (own demise...)

I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind (yeah)
I try to run, I try to hide
But they still come back every night (uh)
Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters (uh, uh)
Ooh, I don't wanna see the monsters (yeah)
I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind (yeah, yeah, uh)

And I know that nobody's perfect
I look at myself, don't know who this person is
My alter ego's a whole different version of me
When the real me is closin' the curtains (yeah)
I'm tryna make changes, I hope that it's worth it
I'm haunted by trauma, I'm holdin' discernment
The monster inside of my soul is emergin'
This song is my therapy, hope that it's worth it (yeah)

If you can relate, I hope you can escape (yeah)
Anything that's internal that you can't face (uh)
It gon' stare in the mirror, look you in the face
I be prayin' for you if you losin' your faith (yeah)
Hope you heal from the shit that got you in your way
If you feel like you're trapped and you're losin' your way (yeah)
Then just know there's somebody like you who can say
We our worst enemy and we two of the same

I see these monsters all the time
They show me bad things in my mind
I try to run, I try to hide
But they still come back every night