who f**king cares?

Nowadays, I don't really go outside
I don't even like the way I look
Let alone the way I feel behind
And I should probably take my medication
'Cause it's been days but I've been busy getting high
And my doctor said, "You'll get sick again
You can't mix these meds with white lines"
And am I happy?
Truth is, I don't really know what that means anymore
All I know is that I'd like to be and someday I might get there
In the meantime, I'll cry to Radiohead hoping my ex still cares, but
That's unlikely, he's probably having great sex
With that girl I knew was an idiot the one
With the bleached blonde hair
And I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself if I go ruin everything
That I'd like to be and someday I might get there
But in the meantime, who fucking cares?

Nowadays, it's hard to feel alive
When the only way I want to live is to try and slowly die
And I should probably find a new explanation
'Cause it's been days and I'm runnin' out of lies
My heart, it aches but as it starts to race
I can feel a taste of what its like
To be happy, when
Truth is, I don't really know what that means anymore
But all I know is that I'd like to be and someday I might get there
But in the meantime
I'll cry to Radiohead hoping my ex still cares, but
That's unlikely, he's definitely having great sex
With that girl I knew was an idiot the one
With the bleached blonde hair
And I don't know if I'll ever forgive myself if I go ruin everything
That I'd like to be and someday I might get there
But in the meantime, who fucking cares?
Who fucking cares?
Who fucking cares?
Who fucking cares?
'Cause it's definitely not me