Pity

Take it slow
Bottom of the pills is what I care about
Attention to the details getting paramount
I'm searching for a fairer truth
Something I can't bear to doubt
But even so I open up my eyes and wanna tear 'em out
This isn't about the opposition
I don't care 'bout competition
I'm worried 'bout my position and what the hell I'll do to fix it
It's something different
If I don't make it, then wish me well
And if I do then know that I'll be leaving from this constant hell
Like impressions make the point
I'm dressing up for the lesson and
Feeling lesser than the person that I know I should be better than
This ain't depression it's a question 'bout my demon
Should I let him in?
Connections with affection have been severed for protection and
I'm just tryna take it slow
I'm thinking that you should know
You're not like the other ones
You're a thought I put to metronome
I don't know how to feel good
The standard is just bare enough
I don't know how do people tend to muster up a care for love
I don't want your pity I just want your silence
I don't want your pity I just want your silence
All this talk about me really opens up my eyelids
If you want attention then remove all of the lies written
Or you'll ride with it
Windows on the side tinted slow
If you wanna be okay
Well then learn to let it go
'Cause this isn't all pretend
I swear it isn't just a show
But everything that's tried to live has always ended up cold
I don't want your pity I just want your silence
I don't want your pity I just want your silence
Thoughts of feeling empty got me steady lying
And the fear of growing up has got me always dying
I don't want your pity I just want your silence
Please just let me go and do it how I wanna try it
This a song that isn't pretty by someone who's done with scribing
All his thoughts of who he wants to be instead about his mileage
I don't want your pity I just want your silence