Trephination

[Intro]

I used to want to take a drill to my head

Let the pain out of the hole

I used to want to cut the veins in my neck

Cool the blood boiling my soul

When I wondered why my daily headaches thundered

Tried to buffer, pushing down the pain I suffered

Mutilated, feeling so humiliated

Cannot wash the dirt off underneath my skin

[Verse 1]

There was a part of me left far behind

When at the age of five years old

I had my innocence taken from me

Emptiness would fill the hole

Now a second grader, thinking why I don't feel better

Why I'm filthy, why the hell I feel so guilty

When drawing stickmen of pornographic men and women

Thinking all the time there's something wrong with me

[Pre-Chorus]

Every day, for three years, from dawn 'til dusk

A migraine would take me and break me

And it'd cripple me so much that

In dreams, it'd seem, with a hole in my temple

That I could probably make my headaches finally go away

[Chorus]

Trephination

Trephination

The enemy inside of me

Won't let me free

Wants me to bleed

[Verse 3]

And after three years now my headaches wear off

For reasons not quite to me known

The acupuncture needles sticking my skin

Pushed them down as far as they'd go

But now I'm older and now inside my anger smoulders

From depression, to fighting, taking out my vengeance

Consequences, now I'd question during sex if...

"Is this how it fuckin' feels or am I fakin' it?"

[Pre-Chorus]

No longer the child that you left there at the bart tracks

I'm now at seventeen, left in an empty blankness

On drugs, with thugs, I'm thinking "Goddamn?"

I'm going to be a failure in the gutter, passed out

[Chorus]

Trephination

Trephination

This enemy inside of me

Won't let me free

Wants me to bleed

[Breakdown]

Fuck!

[Verse 4]

Now I'm older and in this man an anger smoulders

Now I'm thinking a hole in you is what I'm seeing

Your depression is the dent I kick in you in vengeance

Consequences are the pain I'd give to you

[Pre-Chorus]

I know that I'm dreaming, but in this dream I go in

Go through it, and end it

And though I'd never do it

I'm killing you, hand on the trigger - pull it

Your final thought'll be a bullet in your fuckin' head

[Chorus]

Trephination

Trephination

This enemy, inside of me

I'm now killing

To make me free