Arachnids

The dead arachnids on your windowledge let me know that it's

Time for bed

You pull me in just to kiss me

Convince me to stay instead

The concrete floor is cold. Unforgivable

Not as unforgivable as me

What do you want? What do you want with me?

Tell me what you want. You can have what you want with me

Just not yet

Mouth like an ashtray. Lips bitten hard

Pain in my neck from going down

Crawling back through the leaves to my absentee

Love comes to everyone but me

It's not a game that I've liked to play

But I am an addict all the same

Not for needles. Not for the caine

Almost everything else but the shame