i'm not crying you're crying

I'm so sorry that you're seeing me this way
I promise you I'm never like this
The blind hysteria was never on my face
I'd never shed a tear so violent

Hey, oh, I'm totally fine
I wasn't cryin', I wasn't crying
Hey, oh, I totally lied
I swear I'm tryin', I swear I'm trying!

Fake apologies are rain on a cloudless day
And I don't think I've ever seen a sky so clear
'Cause I'm miserable, you think that you have to stay
But you don't have to
No, you don't have to

Hey, oh, I'm totally fine
I wasn't cryin', I wasn't crying
Hey, oh, I totally lied
I swear I'm tryin', I swear I'm trying!

So, what if I sat with you
And told you what I've been going through?
This feeling is way too new
Would you listen to me? Listen to

Or would you watch my words as they leave my lips
And tell me how you're sorry for me?
As if you ever even cared
Do you want things to be like this forever?
You're doing this to yourself
'Cause I don't think you're trying hard enough
You're not trying hard enough!

Hey, oh, I'm totally fine
I wasn't cryin', I wasn't crying
Hey, oh, I totally lied
But now you're tryin', oh, now you're trying!