death vs. dying*

I'm still here, what torture

Why do I deserve this more than her?

I'm 21 now, and she'll be 16 forever

I can't shake the feeling, what if I could take her place?

Or find her in an afterlife, I'd know the words to say

"Hailey, I've been living just in spite of those I hate

Got a chance to make a difference 'fore they all forget your name"

I can't remember the last time I spent a whole day sober

If I could drown all of my anger, what would I have left?

I can't shake the feeling

They found one more victim in a shallow grave

Their things were taken, betrayed marking a mistake

Compromise my morals, let's send these kids to hell

Channel the rage, and bitter wishing "I could've stopped her"

Into killing her myself