Not Guilty

[Intro]

Falling, fading

Down, down, down I go

(Dancing with the devil)

Falling, fading

Down, down, down

Down I go

[Verse 1]

You really wanna know what happened?

I'll tell you how it went

I put my man down like a dog 'cause he hit like a little bitch

And I didn't deserve that shit

I just wanted my fairytale

But there's no such thing as happy endings

So I had to fuckin' bail

Just hop that ship before it went down

And soon the talk was around the town

The couple that always seemed so nice

Well, "There was trouble in paradise"

We were like a massive fire that blazed ten feet high

Onе time, he hit me so hard I almost fuckin' diеd

But now, I'm the one on the stand because he wasn't a real man

Just a monster made of evil, living with him became lethal

He loved to make me look crazy, backhand me then call me, "Baby"

I knew no one was gonna come and save me

If I didn't take him, he was gonna take me

So yeah, I did it, and now I made it bloody

The man could fool you like he was Ted Bundy

I was done with every, "I didn't mean it, honey!"

I been stressed out just because of money"

So yeah, I loved the sound of him crying and begging for his life

He was supposed to keep me protected

I was supposed to be his wife!

[Chorus]

Falling, failing (According to the National Coalition against domestic violence, domestic violence is one of the most chronically under-reported crimes)

Down, down, down I go (Only 25% of all physical assaults, 20% of all rapes, and 50% of all stalking perpetrated against females)

Falling, fading (Are reported to the police. For the small number of cases that do get reported on average, a woman will be assaulted)

Down, down, down (By her partner or ex-partner 35 times before reporting it to the police)

Down I (If ever)

[Verse 2]

You know what, I'm glad that he's dead

The fucker got inside my head and he nudged me to the end of a cliff and pushed me right off the edge

Then I crawled out of a vat of acid when my friends asked me what changed

He went from my abuser to my bitch so now I keep him on a chain

But he won't be puttin' his hands on me or talkin' back again

Didn't know what I was capable of or that I could bring the pain

See, my husband liked to beat on women, so I chopped off his hands and all was forgiven

Didn't know how to keep his dick in his pants, now it stays in a jar on my nightstand

Couldn't keep his mouth shut neither, so I bashed in a couple teeth

He'll think twice before he runs around or tries to beat on me

You see these shiny little tools here? Well, these are all my friends

And they're the last thing you're gonna see 'cause your life's about to end

Let me wash his blood off my hands and then we can go for our drink

Shit, I must have hit him kinda hard 'cause I found his teeth in my sink

I think I like this feeling, this power in my veins

The motherfucker had it coming, now I'll never be the same

[Chorus]

Falling, fading (As COVID-19 crisis surged in the United States, stay at home orders were put in place, stay at home orders intended to protect the public and prevent)

Down, down, down I go (widespread infection left many IPV victims trapped with their abusers. Domestic violence hotlines prepared for an increase in demand)

Falling, fading (As states enforced these mandates, but many organizations experienced the opposite. In some regions, the number of calls dropped by more than 50%)

Down, down, down (Experts in the field knew that rates of IPV had not decreased, but rather the victims)

Down I go (Were unable to safely connect with services)

[Verse 3]

I was tired of all his cat and mouse

I wanted him to clean while I sat on the couch

I wanted just one day without him drinking

I was finally finished, I was finally thinking

I'm sinking into insanity, and my pain tolerance is high

So I showed who's the fuckin' boss, I wore the pants this time

I wouldn't expect you to understand, he was the slaughter and I was the lamb

And I never had this planned, but I didn't stand a chance

So I should've done this sooner, he wasn't my husband, just my abuser

I don't need to tell you why, no offense your honor, but I don't think you'd get it

[Chorus]

Falling, failing (Domestic violence is in many ways a quiet epidemic, though in plain sight, victims are often invisible)

Down, down, down I go (Fearfully denying their situation and hiding behind the facade of the happy home, but the statistics reveal a shocking reality: every 9 seconds a woman)

Falling, fading (In America is assaulted or beaten. According to the National Coalition against Domestic Violence, a mind-boggling 1 in 3 women)

Down, down, down (Has been a victim of physical brutality by an intimate partner. This makes intimate partner violence)

Down I go (The single greatest cause of injury to women)