I'm 30

What the hell is wrong with me?
I'm 30, but I don't think I'm where I should be
Or maybe I can't see, my past lives in my head rent-free
And it's weighing me down, can't climb back up a hill so steep
It's time to

Back at 17, maybe I was shy
But from all it seemed, a nice guy
Couldn't feel complete, even if I tried
(Maybe it's in my DNA)

What the hell is wrong with me?
I'm 30, but I don't think I'm where I should be
It's time to rise up and let go!

I've always been a fraud
I couldn't be myself with a soul so flawed, so dead
No one cared for me, at least that's what I thought (thought, thought)
But I was pushing them away

My past lives in my head rent-free
And it's weighing me down, can't climb back up a hill so steep
It's time to rise up and let go!

Let's be real, I'm still the same as I was back then
A selfish narcissist who'll die alone with no friends
I sobered up because I wanted to feel again
But why the fuck do I still feel down?
Tell me why, why the fuck do I still feel down?
I still feel down, I still feel down
Tell me why, why the fuck do I still feel down?

What the hell is wrong with me?
I'm 30, but I don't think I'm where I should be
Or maybe I can't see, my past lives in my head rent-free
And it's weighing me down, can't climb back up a hill so steep

I'm where I should be
Nothing's wrong with me, no
I'm where I should be
And nothing's wrong with me

But why the fuck do I still feel down?
Ooh, tell me why the fuck, why the fuck do I still feel down?