I'm 30

What the hell is wrong with me? I'm 30, but I don't think I'm where I should be Or maybe I can't see, my past lives in my head rent-free And it's weighing me down, can't climb back up a hill so steep It's time to Back at 17, maybe I was shy But from all it seemed, a nice guy Couldn't feel complete, even if I tried (Maybe it's in my DNA) What the hell is wrong with me? I'm 30, but I don't think I'm where I should be It's time to rise up and let go! I've always been a fraud I couldn't be myself with a soul so flawed, so dead No one cared for me, at least that's what I thought (thought, thought) But I was pushing them away My past lives in my head rent-free And it's weighing me down, can't climb back up a hill so steep It's time to rise up and let go! Let's be real, I'm still the same as I was back then A selfish narcissist who'll die alone with no friends I sobered up because I wanted to feel again But why the fuck do I still feel down? Tell me why, why the fuck do I still feel down? I still feel down, I still feel down Tell me why, why the fuck do I still feel down? What the hell is wrong with me? I'm 30, but I don't think I'm where I should be Or maybe I can't see, my past lives in my head rent-free And it's weighing me down, can't climb back up a hill so steep I'm where I should be Nothing's wrong with me, no I'm where I should be And nothing's wrong with me But why the fuck do I still feel down? Ooh, tell me why the fuck, why the fuck do I still feel down?