Suicide Letters

[Intro: Tech N9ne]

This is a piece that I wrote

When I was on some ole, low down down low feelin, depressed shit

Y'know what I'm sizzlin?

It contains, heh, three suicide letters to my peeps

Well actually uh two suicide letters

Y'know what I'm sizzlin?

I wrote it in rhyme form

But I'm gonna try to read it to the best of my ability

Y'know what I'm sizzlin?

So bear with me

Listen to the lyrics, check it out..

[Verse 1: Tech N9ne]

Picture me in that casket, blasted

Never nobody knew how long the pain lasted

Keep my eyes tight I'm frightened

But I fights like Tyson

When playin' this game of life I'm losin', longin' to be enlightened

Absorb my mind state

Reduce the crime rate and take me out

When runnin' toward the Lord I seen 'em fake me out

Shook me so from church I played hookie

Listen to the words of a brotha

The sick stutter

So ya better better get the get the bags ready

Comin' killa killa like Scagnetti

My brains contaminated, hella rotten

It wasn't me that killed you (Who was it, what was it)

The affects of the mildew, my brains wilted

In my eyes the world is a bit tilted

Lord take me away before somebody else get killed, bloods spills seriously

This is the letter to my homies I'll be missin'

God told me to behold a pale horse but I didn't listen

It's hard mane, my life is scarred mane

I'm losin' my mind so now it's time, sincerely signed N9ne

[Chorus: Nichia Cayson & Tech N9ne]

(I just wanna die)

I don't wanna wake up

I don't wanna cause that's the way

That I feel I'm barely hangin on

(I just wanna die)

I don't wanna wake up

I don't wanna wake up cause that's the way

It has to be

[Interlude: Tech N9ne]

(Man, this is to my wife, check it out)

[Verse 2: Tech N9ne]

I made your life a livin' hell with my infidelity

Remember you telling me all I gave a damn about is weed, stems and melodies

Remember ya spent thirty minutes in the hospital parking lot crying

When the blood test read the baby of another woman was mine, 99.99

Should've left long time ago like Mary J. say

Just let it go like Ray J, I know your momma heard you yelling May Day

Spent my life tryna R A to the P

You were sick of me always being B to the R O K to the E, there was nothing else left for me

I was a bum but you still wanted some through the rain, snow, and thunder

Foul-ups, bleeps and blunders but no man shall tear a sunder is what you said

Shoulda put multi bullets in my head

When you found that Evil Instinct was a song

But the events actually went on, this is the letter

To my homie, my friend who put up with me for 8

So now to take me really quickly's my fate

I'm sorry for making it hard, I know you’re scarred, I'm losin' my mind

So now it's time, sincerely signed N9ne

[Chorus: Nichia Cayson & Tech N9ne]

(I just wanna die)

I don't wanna wake up

I don't wanna cause that's the way

That I feel I'm barely hangin on

(I just wanna die)

I don't wanna wake up

I don't wanna wake up cause that's the way

It has to be

[Verse 3: Tech N9ne]

I love y'all, the dynamic duo, my babies

It ain't your fault that your daddies crazy

Donny I miss you drummin' like me, one day you'll be rulin'

Lilly I miss you  in my face yellin' "Daddy what ya dooyin'?"

You two are the reason why I'm still standin' today

But I'm sixteen-hundred miles away

And it gets my heart sinkin'

When I start thinkin' 'bout you babies, I heavily start drinkin' on a daily

Puffin', I see in my heart I gots to toughin'

Can't see me leavin' my angels with nothin', so I keep bustin'

Use my pain for you two I gotta come up in the game

Fly planes to an island so one day you can do the same with yours

Love you galore and I ain't playin'

Makin' me put an end to the suicidal mindstate sayin'

[Chorus: Tech N9ne]

(I just wanna die)

I don't wanna wake up

I don't wanna cause that's the way

That I feel I'm barely hangin on

(I just wanna die)

I don't wanna wake up

I don't wanna wake up cause that's the way

It has to be

[Over-Chorus: Tech N9ne]

Ya, thats what a nigga was on y'know what I'm sizzlin'? Sh..

But as you can tell

Like I said, I can't leave my angels with nothin'

So I gotta keep bustin', y'know what I'm sizzlin'?

Suicide ain't my thang

Never ever gonna be my thang when I know I got my love

[Outro: Tech N9ne]

So we just gon sit back

Write these rhymes, make these mills

And chill

Don Juan

Tech N9ne