How Should I Feel

[Chorus: Meg & Dia & Witt Lowry]

Monster, how should I feel?

Creatures lie here

Looking through the windows

Monster, there are voices

In the darkness

And they say they won't go (Yeah)

[Verse 1: Witt Lowry]

Stare long enough at the abyss and it seems to start to stare back at you

Lost inside my head is a scary place I’ve adapted to

Friends and family call and I tell 'em that "I'll get back to you"

Too busy on my phone, doomscrollin’, spent the afternoon

Stressed out, head down, can barely leave my bed now

I hate thеse fuckin' feelin's, they tell mе to try these meds out

But doc, we've only talked for like ten minutes, I'm sketched out

Paranoid, can't tell if these people are foes or friends now

You know what it feels like to feel like nobody can help?

On top of that feel like you're losing yourself

I wouldn't even wish my enemies the hand I was dealt

Thought I could pay the pain to fade with some material wealth

But tears fallin’ in the Tesla, I guess it’s kind of ironic

To feel so fucking broke inside somethin' I always wanted

My demons came to play, it feels like my brain may be haunted

Hate myself sometimes as much as they hate on me to be honest

I saw fentanyl take the life away from my cousin

I watched alcohol steal the life away from my dad

I came from nothing, now I’m scared that might be what I'm becomin'

Look in the mirror, barely recognize the one lookin' back, so

[Chorus: Meg & Dia]

Monster, how should I feel?

Creatures lie here

Looking through the windows

Monster, there are voices

In the darkness

And they say they won’t go

[Verse 2: Witt Lowry]

Wrote a song when my dad passed and they said it was trash

That made me wish that I put less of myself into every track

I know you can't just burn the orchard when one apple is bad

But the fact of the matter is that I feel I'm startin' to crack

And they say "Don't take it to heart," well, how the fuck do I not

When I put my soul inside somethin' and they say it's a flop?

Constantly tear my art apart when this is all that I got

They wanna see me on a stage or me left in a grave to rot

I've been overstressin' 'bout overstressin'

I lie in bed and think about this life I manifested

Yet my depression's always yellin' that I'm destined for regression

Sad obsession with progression

Still they think that I'm just desperate for attention

Broke, down about around this time just last fall

At therapy tellin' my therapist I feel so small

Pushed everyone I love away, and fuck, it's all my fault

Is it better to feel like this or to feel nothin' at all?

I turn the lights down lonely

Remember back when we would cash in cans at the grocery

Weren't there when I was drowning but the first to say "You know me"

So sick of people saying that they care and never show me

My grandpa once told me that inside an empty mind is where the devil likes to play

And everyday it's all the same, I just stare at an empty page

Ruminate about all the things that have piled up on my plate

Time I take control of my brain, know I can't just pray this away, so

[Chorus: Meg & Dia]

Monster, how should I feel?

Creatures lie here

Looking through the windows

Monster, there are voices

In the darkness

And they say they won't go

[Outro: Meg & Dia]

(Through the windows)

Monster, there are voices

In the darkness

And they say they won't go