Nevers Road

[Verse]

Yeah, I think about it quite often, I wonder if you can hear me

Sometimes I pick up on signs that you sent to show that you're near me

Sometimes I think about life after death and question the theories

I miss your smile and your voice, I still remember it clearly

I wrote a song called "Last Letter," I put the volume on max

I wonder if you look down on my life and get a good laugh

And then tell Grandma and the others that you're proud you're my dad

I wish I'd cherished every single fuckin' moment we had

Now it's too late, so many things I wish I said, just never had time to say

How can you feel so close from a million miles away?

It's crazy what can change in a year, a month, or a day

I know I'm flawed and so "perfect" is somethin' I never claim

They say, "The strongest storms show the strongest roots"

I always knew that one lie could change a hundred truths

I always cherished when you told me, "I believe in you"

I hope that you can forgive me for how I treated you

Thinkin' back, I blamed you for all of my fuckin' demons

You drank another bottle, could never fathom the reasons

It took too long to get you the help that you really needed

One day when I win a Grammy, I'll hold it up so you see it, I promise

I know you know I'm a man of my word

Lately feelin' less and less adapted to handling hurt

Actin' like they know my fuckin' life 'cause they're fans of my work

Others are nice to get what they want 'cause they're fans of my worth

Can't tell the real from the fake, can't tell the fake from the real

Broken and empty inside, told me in time I would heal

OCD wreckin' my brain, I don't want nothin' the same

Dropped the whole album at once, write it all over again

Write it all over again, write it all over again

Feel like I'm goin' insane, want to feel good for a change

I keep ignorin' the pain, there is nobody to blame

Tell me they love me for me, then they throw dirt on my name, damn

"The darkest nights make the brightest stars"

I tell myself that every time I feel like life gets hard

We've come a long fuckin' way since our "Kindest Regards"

And still I feel like my whole life is just waitin' to start

I could've lost it all in that crash, the lights flash

It's feelin' like something's jabbed in my back

The car's spinnin', my whole body's cut and covered in glass

And when we stop, I see my stomach slowly turnin' to black

That made me realize my whole life is truly fragile at best

Sometimes I stress until I physically feel pain in my chest

I ruminate, that's like my mind is always stuck on reset

I heard my Grandma's fightin' cancer, Mom just sent me a text

I know we always butted heads and never saw eye-to-eye

But at this rate, I've seen too many in my family die

Apologize for holding grudges, such a waste of our time

So I just wanna say "I love you" while you're here and alive

Some people don't know the difference of being human and human-being

I'm only lettin' things inside my life now that give it meaning

I'm only lettin' things inside my mind now that keep me dreaming

I'm only lettin' things inside my heart now that keep it beating

That's real

[Outro]

Yeah

Dan told me, "Jump on this beat and let it all spill"

I wonder if I lost it all if they would call still

Some people tend to forget, but I know we all feel

I put my soul on display and that's what they call "real"

Stop holdin' on, if it's holding you back, then let it go

Your grass will always be the greenest if you let it grow

They said I'll never be anything, guess you never know

No matter how far we'd go, we started at Nevers Road

Nevers Road