forgive

[Verse] I'm ghosting my hometown friends And none of it's on purpose And I let the guilt sink in I feel like a bad person And I know it's not my fault The distance is far too long But in my defence they don't call me either [Verse] I'm picking up bad habits And building a tolerance I'm smoking a cigarette In the backyards of friends of friends And I've never felt much hell Like the burn of my Christian guilt Perpetual sin, it kills all my fire [Chorus] And maybe I've tried All that I could Maybe I've changed Or maybe I should 'Cause I'm getting tired Inside my own skin So maybe I owe it to myself to forgive [Verse] I'm staying up way too late Forgetting to eat something And I underestimate Quite how much is on my plate 'Cause then I'm awake all night Obsessed with my appetite And I wonder why I'm sick in the morning [Chorus] And maybe I've tried All that I could Maybe I've changed Or maybe I should 'Cause I'm getting tired Inside my own skin So maybe I owe it to myself to forgive [Bridge] I beat myself up again Make up some consequence Knowing that isn't productive or positive Years of my life I've spent craving repentance Resenting the fact that I go back Again and again, and again, and again And again, and again And again, and again Maybe I've tried all that I could (and again, and again)