forgive

[Verse]

I'm ghosting my hometown friends

And none of it's on purpose

And I let the guilt sink in

I feel like a bad person

And I know it's not my fault

The distance is far too long

But in my defence they don't call me either

[Verse]

I'm picking up bad habits

And building a tolerance

I'm smoking a cigarette

In the backyards of friends of friends

And I've never felt much hell

Like the burn of my Christian guilt

Perpetual sin, it kills all my fire

[Chorus]

And maybe I've tried

All that I could

Maybe I've changed

Or maybe I should

'Cause I'm getting tired

Inside my own skin

So maybe I owe it to myself to forgive

[Verse]

I'm staying up way too late

Forgetting to eat something

And I underestimate

Quite how much is on my plate

'Cause then I'm awake all night

Obsessed with my appetite

And I wonder why I'm sick in the morning

[Chorus]

And maybe I've tried

All that I could

Maybe I've changed

Or maybe I should

'Cause I'm getting tired

Inside my own skin

So maybe I owe it to myself to forgive

[Bridge]

I beat myself up again

Make up some consequence

Knowing that isn't productive or positive

Years of my life I've spent craving repentance

Resenting the fact that I go back

Again and again, and again, and again

And again, and again

And again, and again

Maybe I've tried all that I could (and again, and again)