Pain Medicine

[Verse 1] A hot knife to my skin Anything just to feel, just to prove that I'm still here Anything to register pain Pain as a medicine Addicted to my own self destruction Heaven's uninvited [Verse 2] Creator and destroyer The arbiter of all composition Albatross Giver and taker of my existence [Verse 3] Pain My only motivation I'm working towards nothing I feel like I'm fucking dying No one knows that I'm here And no one will know when I'm gone [Breakdown] [Bridge] A match lit in a canyon, burning alive in silence A victim of my inaction, we always knew this would happen I'll take this to my grave Don't stop 'till it hurts I need this more than you could ever know Let this end with me I'll never be normal [Refrain] Pain The only thing that I'll ever need Pain The only thing that will never leave Pain The only thing that I'll ever need Pain The only thing that will never leave [Instrumental Break] [Outro] Because when you've been cut, and there is no longer a chance for wholeness Only the feeling of how hopeless you become To ever be the person that you thought you would Lost solace Absence of purpose Your growth, stunted