Fluorescents

Does it help if I say that I'm sorry? I know the burning in my blood has made you worry a lot Like the medicine they gave me that hurt me If you leave when I'm sleeping could you turn the lights off? My eyes ache if I wake up bathing in fluorescence It's hard to shake the phosphenes and iridescence When intravenous makes me feel heavy As frail as glass, I'm fading fast, I think that I'm ready to leave So give me one good reason to believe I'm getting better My weight keeps fluctuating and I struggle to remember The last time I slept through a night without needing to shed my blood I'm so sick of feeling alone But I can't stop thinking about Every time that you'd leave me alone in the house And I'd lay in my bed, suffocating with doubt Over whether I'd manage to function without Having you there to make sure I take what they gave me To kill off the pain that I'm going through daily In every way that I am strong, I am also weak For all the words my lungs have birthed I struggle to speak To you about anything That makes me feel like a burden Does it hurt you if I say I can feel the decay? In a hospital bed I wither away Behind the curtains I've been crying almost every night I don't want to ache like this for the rest of my life So give me one good reason to believe I'm getting better My weight keeps fluctuating and I struggle to remember The last time I slept through a night without needing to shed my blood I'm so sick of feeling alone