Sleep

If I'd have known that from the minute I was born That the price of my existence would be the weight of expectation Then I wouldn't fucking be here How can I focus on the life I'm supposed to lead when every day I struggle with existing? I've dug a hole so deep in my mind that I can no longer see the light of the sun I can no longer hear the voices of people I love I've been breaking my hands Trying to carry the burden that I've placed on myself I'm so afraid of the end I've lead myself to believe that I may never be happy again I think the hardest part of all is trying to justify my habitual self-deprecation When I am constantly surrounded by sources of love and affection I know that I'm not on my own But I can't shake the feeling that I'm in this alone; there's no one that I feel safe with All I've wanted for so long is to succumb to a sleep that I am not afraid of Give me the strength to love myself, as I am told that I am loved May I believe, despite my doubt, that someday I'll be good enough? Give me the strength to love myself, as I am told that I am loved May I believe, despite my doubt, that someday I'll be good enough? Hindsight is a miserable thing When you don't know where you're going and you don't care where you've been Hindsight is a miserable thing When you don't know where you're going and you don't care where you've been