Ghost

What if you woke up to an empty bed

And a note that said "I'm never coming home, I can't live with the person I've become"?

Would you even notice I was gone?

Or would would you carry on?

Staring blankly into spaces that I used to occupy?

I always fucking hated that distance in your eyes

I'm a ghost

I'm a shadow on the wall of a house you don't go in anymore

And though transparency is nothing new to me

I guess I never thought you'd be the one to leave

So, what's there to say?

I know that "sorry" is what's expected

But what will that change?

I'm still sleepless in the bed that I have made

The grave, the product of my selfish ways

And I know that this would mean everything to someone, but nothing to you

But I never meant to be the boy that cried wolf, there was just no other way to get through to you

I mean, how was I expected to tell you the truth?

You couldn't even look me in the face most days

And it's taken me this long to work out why

But I

I spent years being ashamed