Life in Forward Motion

I was comin' off a relapse when they told me that you died And I never did come visit, I thought we'd have more time Well it weighs me down like granite that I gave you some excuse Sometimes I tend to panic, don't wanna face the truth I always kinda hoped for somethin' more But it's hard to see the light when you're face down on the floor I know livin' should be easy, but sometimes it feels a curse There's a shadow hangin' 'round me and it's slowly growin' worse 'Cause life's a forward motion, only makes sense in reverse I'm gettin' further from any meanin' for what it's worth Could I find a new perspective, like I'm born with brand-new eyes? Does it need to take a death for me to be grateful I'm alive? Time's never felt so fragile as I race towards the end And waste the little breath I've got left to make a promise to change again I know livin' should be easy, but sometimes it feels a curse There's a shadow hangin' 'round me and it's slowly growin' worse 'Cause life's a forward motion, only makes sense in reverse I'm gettin' further from any meanin' for what it's worth Further, for what it's worth I know livin' should be easy, but sometimes it feels a curse There's a shadow hangin' 'round me and it's slowly growin' worse 'Cause life's a forward motion, only makes sense in reverse I'm gettin' further from any meanin' for what it's worth