[Verse 1: Ekoh]
I used to skate to school every day with those headphones
Just bumpin' underground rap shit, yeah, boy
You probably didn't know the artist I was rockin' with
But they knew me, and I heard it in the songs they spit, ay
I swear to God, it's like some weird connection
If you ain't down to give that shit a chance, you'll never get it
That's okay, 'cause I like holdin' it close
Like a special superpower only I know
When lyin' so true to your heart when you listen to somethin'
It made the hairs on your arm stand up like, fuck
Yeah, that's the good ol' days
I never thoughts all those feelings could change
But, start a career and now the music that I used to love
And always used as an escape has got me feelin' stuck
Like, "How's the buzz look? Now what's the monthly plays at?
We gotta get new content," man, I just start to hate rap
And takin' the pressure, it's a daily competition
When you only feel as good as the last shit that you've written
So I spend the day mixin', makin' beats and spittin'
When I get home, the last thing I wanna do is listen, right?
Like, what's worse?
Never being heard?
Or when your dream causes more anxiety than it's worth?
And it hurts when you thinkin' that the magic is gone
'Cause you don't get the same relief you used to get from these songs, yeah
I'm not a savior, I'm a man with a soul
Spent too much time feedin' yours, neglecting my own
I'm just malnourished, I swear that I'm not selfish
I'm grateful I found purpose, I hope that it really helps you, uh
Big facts, I hate that the business of tryna make a living is killin' the passion that got me to do this
So fuck that, take away the fans and just remind me there ain't anything that's better than love for the music
[Pre-Chorus: Ekoh]
I take it back to my youth
You got a hard time blooming? Take a look at the roots
Yeah, I wanna give the best music I can
But not forget that I started out this shit as a fan, it's love
[Chorus: Drowsy]
I feel it in my guts
Afraid I'll never be the same
I had a spark once
Now I'm just tryna keep the light from fading
I'm no firefly
[Verse 2: Ekoh]
See, I remember what the music does
Enhance the high but also help me get off all the drugs
And at the lowest times pickin' me up
Or in the car, with a girl, in a parking lot, fallin' in love, ay
Now I'm sittin' in that car writing
Thinking, "If I fuck it up, these people won't like me"
That's a battle in my head all day
Like, "I'm the shit, I'm the worst", switch it up, stay the same, uh
Like, oh, baby
Yeah, this life crazy
Chasin' big dreams and feelin' the lows lately
Dealin' with those hating
Fire that keeps fading
And I don't know what to do if the music cannot save me now
Yeah, just tryna keep the heart
'Cause often times, the best times are back when you start
Yeah, I never thought I'd get this far
But know the love ain't dead, it's just a need to recharge, so—
[Pre-Chorus: Ekoh]
I take it back to my youth
You got a hard time blooming? Take a look at the roots
I wanna be the best artist I can
But not forget nothin' beats being a fan, it's love
[Chorus: Drowsy]
I feel it in my guts
Afraid I'll never be the same
I had a spark once
Now I'm just tryna keep the light from fading
I'm no firefly
[Bridge: Ekoh]
(Yeah, I guess you never know where this road will take you to)
(And I never really thought with my life, I'd make it through)
(Yeah, I guess you never know where this road will take you to)
(I look back and I think I should be thanking you)
[Chorus: Drowsy & Ekoh]
I feel it in my guts
Afraid I'll never be the same, uh
Had a spark once
Now I'm just tryna keep the light from fading
My firefly
I feel it in my guts
(Yeah, I guess you never know where this road will take you to)
Afraid I'll never be the same
(And I never really thought with my life, I'd make it through)
I had a spark once
(Yeah, I guess you never know where this road will take you to)
Now I'm just tryna keep the light from fading
I'm no firefly
