Firefly

[Verse 1: Ekoh]

I used to skate to school every day with those headphones

Just bumpin' underground rap shit, yeah, boy

You probably didn't know the artist I was rockin' with

But they knew me, and I heard it in the songs they spit, ay

I swear to God, it's like some weird connection

If you ain't down to give that shit a chance, you'll never get it

That's okay, 'cause I like holdin' it close

Like a special superpower only I know

When lyin' so true to your heart when you listen to somethin'

It made the hairs on your arm stand up like, fuck

Yeah, that's the good ol' days

I never thoughts all those feelings could change

But, start a career and now the music that I used to love

And always used as an escape has got me feelin' stuck

Like, "How's the buzz look? Now what's the monthly plays at?

We gotta get new content," man, I just start to hate rap

And takin' the pressure, it's a daily competition

When you only feel as good as the last shit that you've written

So I spend the day mixin', makin' beats and spittin'

When I get home, the last thing I wanna do is listen, right?

Like, what's worse?

Never being heard?

Or when your dream causes more anxiety than it's worth?

And it hurts when you thinkin' that the magic is gone

'Cause you don't get the same relief you used to get from these songs, yeah

I'm not a savior, I'm a man with a soul

Spent too much time feedin' yours, neglecting my own

I'm just malnourished, I swear that I'm not selfish

I'm grateful I found purpose, I hope that it really helps you, uh

Big facts, I hate that the business of tryna make a living is killin' the passion that got me to do this

So fuck that, take away the fans and just remind me there ain't anything that's better than love for the music

[Pre-Chorus: Ekoh]

I take it back to my youth

You got a hard time blooming? Take a look at the roots

Yeah, I wanna give the best music I can

But not forget that I started out this shit as a fan, it's love

[Chorus: Drowsy]

I feel it in my guts

Afraid I'll never be the same

I had a spark once

Now I'm just tryna keep the light from fading

I'm no firefly

[Verse 2: Ekoh]

See, I remember what the music does

Enhance the high but also help me get off all the drugs

And at the lowest times pickin' me up

Or in the car, with a girl, in a parking lot, fallin' in love, ay

Now I'm sittin' in that car writing

Thinking, "If I fuck it up, these people won't like me"

That's a battle in my head all day

Like, "I'm the shit, I'm the worst", switch it up, stay the same, uh

Like, oh, baby

Yeah, this life crazy

Chasin' big dreams and feelin' the lows lately

Dealin' with those hating

Fire that keeps fading

And I don't know what to do if the music cannot save me now

Yeah, just tryna keep the heart

'Cause often times, the best times are back when you start

Yeah, I never thought I'd get this far

But know the love ain't dead, it's just a need to recharge, so—

[Pre-Chorus: Ekoh]

I take it back to my youth

You got a hard time blooming? Take a look at the roots

I wanna be the best artist I can

But not forget nothin' beats being a fan, it's love

[Chorus: Drowsy]

I feel it in my guts

Afraid I'll never be the same

I had a spark once

Now I'm just tryna keep the light from fading

I'm no firefly

[Bridge: Ekoh]

(Yeah, I guess you never know where this road will take you to)

(And I never really thought with my life, I'd make it through)

(Yeah, I guess you never know where this road will take you to)

(I look back and I think I should be thanking you)

[Chorus: Drowsy & Ekoh]

I feel it in my guts

Afraid I'll never be the same, uh

Had a spark once

Now I'm just tryna keep the light from fading

My firefly

I feel it in my guts

(Yeah, I guess you never know where this road will take you to)

Afraid I'll never be the same

(And I never really thought with my life, I'd make it through)

I had a spark once

(Yeah, I guess you never know where this road will take you to)

Now I'm just tryna keep the light from fading

I'm no firefly