Alone at a Party

[Verse 1] Filling in my calendar Every hour with stuff to do If I can't stop to think of it I won't have time for missing you I haven't called up my family I'm avoiding my oldest friends Maybe I'll just make some new ones So I don't have to pretend I'm happy Alone at the party again [Chorus] I don't know what I'm supposed to do I can't hate you and trust me I've tried to How long is this supposed to take 'Cause I love you and I need that to change [Verse 2] Maybe it was destructive To go catch a crush I've built this up into something That it never was But if my memory serves me Like my self-worth rarely does This started just like the ending Trying to play it cool enough And leading with an awkward hug [Chorus] I don't know what I'm supposed to do I can't hate you and trust me I've tried to How long is this supposed to take 'Cause I love you and I need that to change [Bridge] We joked that this would be easier For whoever cared less I guess that makes me the loser But I'm trying my best [Chorus] I don't know what I'm supposed to do I can't hate you and trust me I've tried to How long is this supposed to take 'Cause I love you, I don't that to change I need it to change