Nomoreroses

If God is just and fair Why wasn't my heart spared? I've waited all my life To see this holy light You're smothering my eyes I wanna see it, I wanna feel it The harder that I pray The more you make it rain I'm soaked in all this pain Forgive me for drowning Deafen me with your voice You stuffed me with this void And if I've done you wrong by not enduring this pain Well, where were you and all your eternal holy grace? I've been sitting on your front porch, knocking on your front door Knocking 'til my knuckles turn redraw I've been sitting in the ether, looking for belief I'm lost like a whistle in the wind I've been kneeling on my barebones, speaking with my eyes closed Keeping both my knuckles pressing my nose But nothing that I ever do Will close this hole inside of me If you are just and fair Why won't you meet me there? And if I've done you wrong by not enduring this pain Well, where were you and all your eternal holy grace? How many tear-stained sonatas must I sing for you to see? I never believed in you because you never believed in me