Ghost // Pains

I have said goodbye a thousand times It never seems to feel right I've gazed in your eyes When I close mine I see your face And I wait up all night Screaming in a void that never answers me When I say I wish I could see you again And it'll always kill me Knowing all that time We let slip without batting an eye Without knowing life's passing you by And I don't wanna lose anyone else I'm sick of dragging that hurt around I hang on every sentence Every moment is precious spent with the people I love I can't exist in the present moment I know what's beyond the bend I'm pessimistic when I look ahead At the future reality sets in Waiting for that pin to fall And loss to crush me evermore Screaming into a void That never answers me (That never answers me) I don't wanna lose anyone else (anyone else) I'm sick of dragging the hurt around Why is it always bad news That rolls off the tongue Am I supposed to grieve till I'm numb? I can't exist in the present moment I know what's beyond the bend I'm pessimistic when I look ahead Reality is setting in Sing me to sleep Another night hard to breathe Why couldn't it be me? When I come to visit, it'll be a grave site Where I'll see your name carved up alongside stone Silence it speaks volumes More than words can say I froze when I learned you died today I feel so helpless, I feel so guilty An ambulance is taking your body And the morgue awaits reports for the autopsy You didn't deserve this You didn't deserve this