Ghost // Pains

I have said goodbye a thousand times

It never seems to feel right

I've gazed in your eyes

When I close mine I see your face

And I wait up all night

Screaming in a void that never answers me

When I say

I wish I could see you again

And it'll always kill me

Knowing all that time

We let slip without batting an eye

Without knowing life's passing you by

And I don't wanna lose anyone else

I'm sick of dragging that hurt around

I hang on every sentence

Every moment is precious spent with the people I love

I can't exist in the present moment

I know what's beyond the bend

I'm pessimistic when I look ahead

At the future reality sets in

Waiting for that pin to fall

And loss to crush me evermore

Screaming into a void

That never answers me (That never answers me)

I don't wanna lose anyone else (anyone else)

I'm sick of dragging the hurt around

Why is it always bad news

That rolls off the tongue

Am I supposed to grieve till I'm numb?

I can't exist in the present moment

I know what's beyond the bend

I'm pessimistic when I look ahead

Reality is setting in

Sing me to sleep

Another night hard to breathe

Why couldn't it be me?

When I come to visit, it'll be a grave site

Where I'll see your name carved up alongside stone

Silence it speaks volumes

More than words can say

I froze when I learned you died today

I feel so helpless, I feel so guilty

An ambulance is taking your body

And the morgue awaits reports for the autopsy

You didn't deserve this

You didn't deserve this