Jumbled Thoughts

[Verse] I put my heart in everything I do Clearly that's not enough Take my whole soul and pour it out Now you can sew me shut, fuck This life just isn't as advertised Look at my eyes, I fantasize about a day with bluer skies And truthfully, trying to express myself is new to me I knew I'd be hated on but why be so cruel to me? But fuck it and fuck you, you ain't worth shit All those shots you took missed and I can promise you this And now I laugh at the hate and put my best foot forward But even with the crowd around me I still feel like a loner Yet I would rather be alone than have to deal with the fakes We all came in this world alone and we all leave the same way Wait...Where am I going with this? Mind is so jumbled and as I stumble I just smile cause I always stay humble Now look at me, I mean, wait, just look right through me My life's a movie, funny how people think they knew me, how could they? I'm still trying to figure out who I am If life's a beach, then I'll just sit here, write my lines in the sand and understand Change once used to make me nervous but they say change is for the better Now I'm thinking it's worth it, yeah "The Prelude" dropped, I was absorbing the buzz But now I see that as a small baby step cause it was And life does take you for rides, so just take it in strides But over everything, the money and the power, it's pride, wow I can't believe where my life's at now And things are moving so fast, now do they ever slow down? Where am I now? Thinking back I'm in my friend's basement And that we have so far to go, success, I can taste it To all my family and friends, you were all amazing And as long as you have my back, I know that I can make it, yeah And those who stayed by my side since day one Just know that everything I win is like we all have won And I know I'm not the perfect person and I don't try to be And I know sometimes I act stubborn, please bear with me I swear I have the best intentions and a heart of gold and offer you a story that is unwritten and untold I learned that most people leave but to the ones that stay: Thank you for everything, one day we'll have it made, yeah One day we'll have it made, yeah One day we'll have it made, I promise