Jumbled Thoughts

[Verse]

I put my heart in everything I do

Clearly that's not enough

Take my whole soul and pour it out

Now you can sew me shut, fuck

This life just isn't as advertised

Look at my eyes, I fantasize about a day with bluer skies

And truthfully, trying to express myself is new to me

I knew I'd be hated on but why be so cruel to me?

But fuck it and fuck you, you ain't worth shit

All those shots you took missed and I can promise you this

And now I laugh at the hate and put my best foot forward

But even with the crowd around me I still feel like a loner

Yet I would rather be alone than have to deal with the fakes

We all came in this world alone and we all leave the same way

Wait...Where am I going with this?

Mind is so jumbled and as I stumble I just smile cause I always stay humble

Now look at me, I mean, wait, just look right through me

My life's a movie, funny how people think they knew me, how could they?

I'm still trying to figure out who I am

If life's a beach, then I'll just sit here, write my lines in the sand and understand

Change once used to make me nervous but they say change is for the better

Now I'm thinking it's worth it, yeah

"The Prelude" dropped, I was absorbing the buzz

But now I see that as a small baby step cause it was

And life does take you for rides, so just take it in strides

But over everything, the money and the power, it's pride, wow

I can't believe where my life's at now

And things are moving so fast, now do they ever slow down?

Where am I now?

Thinking back I'm in my friend's basement

And that we have so far to go, success, I can taste it

To all my family and friends, you were all amazing

And as long as you have my back, I know that I can make it, yeah

And those who stayed by my side since day one

Just know that everything I win is like we all have won

And I know I'm not the perfect person and I don't try to be

And I know sometimes I act stubborn, please bear with me

I swear I have the best intentions and a heart of gold and offer you a story that is unwritten and untold

I learned that most people leave but to the ones that stay:

Thank you for everything, one day we'll have it made, yeah

One day we'll have it made, yeah

One day we'll have it made, I promise