Nevers Road

[Verse] Yeah, I think about it quite often, I wonder if you can hear me Sometimes I pick up on signs that you sent to show that you're near me Sometimes I think about life after death and question the theories I miss your smile and your voice, I still remember it clearly I wrote a song called "Last Letter," I put the volume on max I wonder if you look down on my life and get a good laugh And then tell Grandma and the others that you're proud you're my dad I wish I'd cherished every single fuckin' moment we had Now it's too late, so many things I wish I said, just never had time to say How can you feel so close from a million miles away? It's crazy what can change in a year, a month, or a day I know I'm flawed and so "perfect" is somethin' I never claim They say, "The strongest storms show the strongest roots" I always knew that one lie could change a hundred truths I always cherished when you told me, "I believe in you" I hope that you can forgive me for how I treated you Thinkin' back, I blamed you for all of my fuckin' demons You drank another bottle, could never fathom the reasons It took too long to get you the help that you really needed One day when I win a Grammy, I'll hold it up so you see it, I promise I know you know I'm a man of my word Lately feelin' less and less adapted to handling hurt Actin' like they know my fuckin' life 'cause they're fans of my work Others are nice to get what they want 'cause they're fans of my worth Can't tell the real from the fake, can't tell the fake from the real Broken and empty inside, told me in time I would heal OCD wreckin' my brain, I don't want nothin' the same Dropped the whole album at once, write it all over again Write it all over again, write it all over again Feel like I'm goin' insane, want to feel good for a change I keep ignorin' the pain, there is nobody to blame Tell me they love me for me, then they throw dirt on my name, damn "The darkest nights make the brightest stars" I tell myself that every time I feel like life gets hard We've come a long fuckin' way since our "Kindest Regards" And still I feel like my whole life is just waitin' to start I could've lost it all in that crash, the lights flash It's feelin' like something's jabbed in my back The car's spinnin', my whole body's cut and covered in glass And when we stop, I see my stomach slowly turnin' to black That made me realize my whole life is truly fragile at best Sometimes I stress until I physically feel pain in my chest I ruminate, that's like my mind is always stuck on reset I heard my Grandma's fightin' cancer, Mom just sent me a text I know we always butted heads and never saw eye-to-eye But at this rate, I've seen too many in my family die Apologize for holding grudges, such a waste of our time So I just wanna say "I love you" while you're here and alive Some people don't know the difference of being human and human-being I'm only lettin' things inside my life now that give it meaning I'm only lettin' things inside my mind now that keep me dreaming I'm only lettin' things inside my heart now that keep it beating That's real [Outro] Yeah Dan told me, "Jump on this beat and let it all spill" I wonder if I lost it all if they would call still Some people tend to forget, but I know we all feel I put my soul on display and that's what they call "real" Stop holdin' on, if it's holding you back, then let it go Your grass will always be the greenest if you let it grow They said I'll never be anything, guess you never know No matter how far we'd go, we started at Nevers Road Nevers Road