Endless Emptiness

I will no longer set myself on fire

Just to see your eyes light up

If it's gone, I'm gone. If it's dead, I'm dead

So say it straight and don't you fucking pretend

I thought it would play out fine, but I'm still empty as ever

And I've seen every sign, but I'm still searching for more

Replay it over and over, seems I took the long road home

It's 3AM, you're fast asleep and I'm still losing it

Fucked myself again, another fresh start torn apart

So far from stable, I have no grip on this situation

'Cause I'm scared to know what it's like to stay in one place

Take me out of this mess I've made

Have your choice at a gun or a blade

But I can't do this any longer

I object to your rejection

Tell me who the fuck do you see in that reflection?

I can't explain how I got here

But I'm ready to face the mirror

And come to terms with what I fear

I keep telling myself I don't want to be here anymore

Why am I scared to death of any sort of constant?

So are the suicidal thoughts just a way to cope with the fact

That my reality is I'm dependent on your company?

Just wanted someone to talk to. Just wanted someone to listen

Decided the fighting wasn't worth my time

But it's hard to break this cycle when it's all I've ever known

I close my eyes and imagine the world without me