hydroplaning

Something about you liking me

Just doesn't sit right with me

I think it probably means you have bad taste

And you know I'm a pretentious asshole

And I'll find a million tiny things to hassle you about

Make up my mind before I know you and kick you out

And then, of course I'll whine about

How no one could ever love me

Blatantly ignore all of the warning signs in front of me

Drive my car on the interstate while it's raining

I go hydroplaning for fun

Fuck up my life on purpose when I get too bored of being numb

It's 2 am and I'm calling you back

"Hey, really sorry for the way I acted

Anyway, do you wanna come over?

Mess around, play a movie in the background

We don't even have to talk, in fact I'd really prefer it that we not

That way I don't have to think about you as collateral for all my bad decisions."

You remind me way too much of all the love I could've seen

All the shit I've served up cold to all the people that were nice to me

I'm the queen of self sabotage

My insecurities are camouflaged

If I never let anyone in

I won't ever be left again