God Hold You

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i hear you in the morning
singing allelu
and love immortal
and i
i am no longer ashamed
wish i could live those years again
you’re something like a dream
or something i could never reach
or quite discern
in memory
you got me
eventually
texting as kids
still remember the whole thing
and how it let the light in
honey sandwiches in the gymnasium
grazed knee on the ziggurat
fuck, i been down so long
never want to feel like that again
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only noticed when i stopped
you only had to ask
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