I Told You Things

I told you things that I never said
You're the golden boy and my worst regret
So I cut the cost and I limit feeling
You were all it once 'til the fade to black
Took your cigarettes and poems back
You were in my hands, now you're on my ceiling

But how's the city been?
You get recognized at the local bar
By the drunken guys and the starlit girls
They claw for pieces
Do you give a few? Do you like that?
Do you freak out? Or get sad?
Do you go home or am I reaching?

Hey, wait, guess what?
Yesterday, I stopped and played it safe
Instead of walking straight to you to say
"Stay, nevermind, okay"
Don't mean it, plus you've changed
Not much, but just enough to throw away
Fake fantasies and games
I've lost a year, it's strange

Composed a hundred ways to tell you
"Hey, what if I took your call as more than just a call as writing on the walls?"
You built this cage
Lost color in my face, you're fearing I'm insane
Hallucination, shame, guilt, pain, more pain

(Don't let them) know we're in pain
(Don't let them) know we're in pain
(Don't let them) know we're in pain
(Ah)

I told you things that I never said to anybody else
I regret them
But I'll pack it up and practice leaving, mm
You were all at once 'til the fade to black
'Til the yellow glow turned a little sad
You were in my hands, but you're good at leaving