Ooh-oh Ate lunch with the devil, was dancing with death I'm making the most of the chance I have left One hand to the sky, one hand on my chest If you asked if I'm scared, then the answer is yes I done been up, I done been poor Not even a dollar, I slept on the floor A mountain of problems that can't be ignored I came from the bottom to settle the score Lord gave me a shot with this music I promised him no more excuses I'm trying so hard, you can tell by my scars That my past has been so damn abusive It's time I tell you what the truth is Some days I swear I feel useless My happiness has been elusive I had an encounter with Judas Somewhere in the dark along the line I lost my mind The old me is a prisoner that's somewhere lost in time I had family I treated right that tried to take my life Look at my back and you won't find no room to put another knife I lost my mind, I got no shame and I keep trying not to cry Got this ice running through my veins, and I got fire in my eyes All the things that I've done in the darkness All the nights that my mind was at war And down in my soul there's just one thing I know Heaven ain't a place you go looking for They all fall down Just like a house of cards They all fall down And heaven ain't a place you go looking for Hold up, throw me the sack and let's roll up Been struggling, trying to get sober Fuck it, pass me the drink and let's pour up But don't ask what's in my Styrofoam You can tell the lights are on But there ain't nobody home Been smoking that killer shit You can tell that I'm feeling it You can tell that I'm really lit Out of body experience Back in my zone, back in my bag Ain't been the same since that happened to dad I've been barefooted while walking on glass Surrounded by flames with a can full of gas Ready for war, put on my armor I'm doing this for my son and my daughter As I kneel down at the foot of the Father Left all my problems right there at the altar And he washed away every sin Now I'm back and I'm better than I ever been I lost my mind, I got no shame and I keep trying not to cry Got this ice running through my veins, and I got fire in my eyes All the things that I've done in the darkness All the nights that my mind was at war And down in my soul there's just one thing I know Heaven ain't a place you go looking for They all fall down Just like a house of cards They all fall down And heaven ain't a place you go looking for