I Don't Care Anymore

Thought that I'd be cool
Thought that I'd be farther
Thought that I'd be cooler
Thought that I'd be smarter
Thought that I'd be thinner
Thought that I'd be farther

By the time I was 25
Thought I'd have it set in stone
Thought I'd have a cute wife
And a house with some big windows

Now I'm here in my apartment
With some cat hair on my sweater
Drinking day old coffee
Tweeting everything gets better

And my
Gay panic keeps me up so late
Think I haven't slept in about 100 days

I'm a queer kid
No roadmap
Had to figure it out without falling through the cracks

They told me to blend in
But what's the point in blending in
If you can never meet their standards

Iiiiiii I just don't care anymore (nope)
Iiiii I just don't care anymore
Man not even a little bit
Iiiiii I just don't care anymore
(In the back)
Iiiiii I just don't care anymore

Thought that it'd be easy
Thought that it'd be simple
Move out of my hometown
And become someone different

Booze and noise and girls
Boys and smoking driving in a car
I'm feeling full full of life but where the hell I'm headed I don't know
Feeling all this pain but I heard you need pain to grow so

Now I'm here in my apartment
Looking at my girlfriend
Felt like giving up now I'm in love
It's been a whirlwind

I'm a weird kid
No roadmap
Had to figure it out without losing my head

They told me to blend in
But what's the point of blending in
When I don't wanna meet their standards

Iiiiiii I just don't care anymore
Iiiii I just don't care anymore
Iiiiii I just don't care anymore
Iiiiii I just don't care anymore