99 and counting

Saw a dead squirrel in my garden
Watched my grandpa die this morning
He was 99 and counting
Had his family around him
Something profound hit me
I was ready to die at fifteen
Think my cat really would've missed me
Thought the guy of my dreams would fix me

But some things just take time
Sometimes there's no sign

Swallowed a fly at the studio
That would've broke me a year ago
Think I'm starting to grow a backbone
Now I'm learning to let things let go
And I was thinking about Hiroshima
And my heart sank a little deeper
There's a darkness inside most people
We're the same but some are more equal

And some things just take time
Sometimes theres no sign
Somehow I chose right
So much more to life

I don't cry on the floor
Of my shower anymore
I don't starve myself
Don't slam my bedroom door
And I don't lie to my friends
When I'm planning out the end
I wont type a goodbye note
And I won't
And I won't hit send

Til I'm 99 and
Til I'm 99 and counting