Toffee

I planned reverse
It's all rehearsed
Yeah, I forget my lines
This doubt fills me up
'Cause I feel like I'm a stranger when I'm happy
Sad, I'm arguing more than I've ever known
You say you love her, I kind of hate her
And yet I don't, maybe I don't

Like toffee, thought that you'd be sweet
But how you linger, stuck in my teeth
Sugarcoated words, swallow them whole
And smile, it's not that hard

I mourn the wolves
But hate to fawn
And yes, I confess that I ran again last night back to what I know
It felt so good, it still, it hurt, it hurts to let it go

Euphoric vex, I'm so impressed by these tears that are mine
Overwhelming, god, I've never felt so alive, who am I?

Like toffee, so intensely sweet
I want you, need you, take me, feed me
Sugarcoated words, I take them whole
And smile, I've come so far
Come so far