dont let me go

Lately, my thoughts eatin' me alive
Laid in the bed, thinking maybe that hate will finally go away if I'm not alive
Wish I didn't listen, just like I wish they would understand me one time
I had a breakdown, and tatted my entire body except one line
Everything's just fine, slipping again
There I go slipping again, I'm acting different again
I see my family's reflection every time I look in the cup, and I sip it again
After this ends, tell me after all the sins, will I be mentioned again?
Why do I care if in the end it's just me and God, like I'm Christian again?
Yeah, Slim, bring the beat in
Before my dad left this Earth
He made sure I took on every quality I didn't want
I was supposed to die at birth
Gave me a chance and I fucked it up, give me another one (mm)
I've been running from secrets I hate as a kid and I never confronted 'em
I just called mom
Said I forgive her for not being there when I needed one
I'm coming back, just let me go
I'm coming back, just let me go, yeah
I'm coming back, just let me go
I'm coming back, don't let me go
Who am I when the music stops?
And the character that I've been playing is really just broken and fucking lost?
I swear, I've been telling you over and over again in all of these songs
But they don't hear nothing I'm writing, 'cause they're too busy trying to write me off
And they go on, and on, and on
It's funny 'cause if we just sat and talked
You'd see that it's just hard for me to be vulnerable
'Cause I blocked it off, I got trust issues growing up
No one was there to hear what I thought
My heart was broken like my ribs as a kid
When me and my father fought
Yeah, I'm medicating with something that I cannot pronounce
But it's what the doctor gave me
Rehab patient with a pen and some paper
The psychiatrist keeps evaluating
How can I live with the fact that my hand wasn't on a stomach
When we lost the baby?
I don't got no one to turn to
'Cause everyone's dead in my life that was trying to raise me (mm)
Searching for someone to tell me who I really am
I don't know when I look in the mirror
Constantly dreading the day that the audience might not be screaming for me anymore
Feeling of dying alone and not leaving anything behind is my biggest fear
Kiss the person that I love as if I'm never coming back after I leave out the door
I'm coming back, just let me go (feelin' like)
I'm coming back, just let me go, yeah
I'm coming back, just let me go
I'm coming back, don't let me go (mm)
I'm coming back, just let me go (mm)
I'm coming back, just let me go, yeah (mm)
I'm coming back, just let me go (mm)
I'm coming back, don't let me go