Suicide

Oh no, here we go again
It's like I've always fought back into the same patterns
I can't do nothing right anymore
Why am I even here?
I just want to leave this place

You can't understand the way I feel my mind is potent
Is that me or the fear taking I'm always hoping
Things get better but they don't then I'm lost coping
Nobody there when I need em I swear I'm damn broken
My heads above but I've been fighting tryna stay afloat
These demons lurking but don't ever seem to wanna go
I've been searching for a place that I can call my home
I'm on a dark scary path feeling so alone
And if I leave this earth today would they really care?
You said you'd always be there for me but you're never here
My mental issues have been forcing me to see unclear
My anxiety, depression worsens every year
I'm asking god "why'd you take my best away?"
Only 20 years old, I'm left in disarray
They say your time will come, it's always for a reason
I'm tryna fight the pain, I think I need some healing
I need an inspiration I swear these walls are caving
My motivations crumble, I'm sick and tired of waiting
Should I pick up this gun and get it over with?
Cause life ain't always what it seems I wanna call it quits
This a situation that I needed to address
Suicide is all a joke until someone is dead
We need to act upon these issues, do not go ignore it
I stand behind the ones who suffer Ima voice it for em
Without them hardships, you never gonna taste success
Without failure, you will never truly be your best
You feeling lost? Need some help? Know it's not too late
You got your whole life ahead, don't let it go to waste
But I've been tryna find a reason not to end it all
It seems nobody ever answers when I make a call
Can't nobody think for me I got my own thoughts
Can't nobody think for me I got my own thoughts
Can't nobody can't nobody think for me
Can't nobody can't nobody think for me
I need somebody need somebody there for me
I need somebody need somebody there for me
I'm feeling so lost
Im feeling so lost
Where do I go when my minds gone?
Where do I turn when my minds gone?

If you know anybody suffering from mental illness,
Don't be afraid to reach out 1-800-273-8255
Pick up the phone now, you may save a life