One Moment from Disaster

I cannot maintain everyone's expectations of me I am not your light I am not your guide Only the product of life unrealised Don't ask me for a fucking thing Cause that's all I can give consistently This is not an apology This is my declaration A step from calamity One moment from disaster I don't know any better than you I have simply come to terms with my own unrest There is no control to be had anymore This will all go on with or without me I don't know what you want I don't know what you need But I know it's not me, it never will be You will die and you will fade And I will continue in the face of your amity abstained In the company of none I am my own priority Because I'm the only one that's not allowed to leave My intentions are tragic My existence is an accident Don't make a habit out of thinking highly of me To trust and to love Is to concede our own human nature Just because i'm here doesn't mean that i'm not a failure Whether or not you realize We could so easily survive each others loss Do not allow me to destroy you Because I will Living in the fallout of affection's longing Just because you love me doesn't mean that I care I didn't mean for this to happen I move on with complete lack of notion or intent But that isn't enough for anyone to give a fuck No decency is owed No decency is owed I am not a person I am your vessel Fill me whole fill me whole fill me whole