Face First

I failed myself

Again today

Liar, liar

It's always been that way

I fell face first

While I was over thinking

Cloud my mind again

Block it all away

Insecure and undeserving

Of all the love

You were reserving

Negative and assuming

I'm numbing myself

Just to keep quiet

I couldn't commit

When it knew all along

It would end up like this

I won't pretend

That I don't want all my secrets back

My own reflection

Won't look me in the eyes

Cause it knows

Who I could've been

But you killed him

You killed him

I tried to change for you

Faked a smile and attitude

I never wanted it to be like this

I never wanted to feel a fucking thing

I lost the key

To purposely

Keep everything locked away inside of me

Still question myself

Still hating myself

Still everything I deserve

Another blow to the head

Slapped in the face

By the things that you said

This curse burns infinite

Bound by the chains

Anchored in my head

And so it begins

Every single good thing will come to an end

Nothing ever lasts when every light in my path is burned out by my past