Dead Butterflies

I don't wanna die
I just don't wanna be alive, in black, in white
'Cause nothing matters when my mind is like cyanide
Drowning me in dead butterflies
Free from pain, numb's the price
Drowning me in dead butterflies

Comfort of a warm embrace, jokes that got me through the day
Friends I couldn't live without mean nothing now, nothing now
"I love you's" and "you'll be okay's", affirmations that I craved
Words that helped when I was down mean nothing now, nothing now
Emotions paralyzed and pinned down tight
They all forgot how to fly
I don't wanna die
I just don't wanna be alive, in black, in white
'Cause nothing matters when my mind is like cyanide
Drowning me in dead butterflies
Free from pain, numb's the price
Drowning me in dead butterflies

Deepest dreams I live to chase, passions that outweighed the pain
Accolades that made me proud mean nothing now, nothing now
Emotions paralyzed and pinned down tight
Where dopamine goes to die
I don't wanna die
I just don't wanna be alive, in black, in white
'Cause nothing matters when my mind is like cyanide
Drowning me in dead butterflies
Free from pain, numb's the price
Drowning me in dead butterflies

When I try to feel, I fall
Every ceiling is a wall
What the hell are these wings for?
When I try to feel, I fall
Every ceiling is a wall
What the hell are these wings for?
The reasons I'd commit to stay, the optimist that kept me sane
The faith I used to never doubt, mean nothing now
I don't wanna die
I just don't wanna be alive, in black, in white
'Cause nothing matters when my mind is like cyanide
Drowning me in dead butterflies
Free from pain, numb's the price
Drowning me in dead butterflies