The List

Isla recommended Cole to me
He sounded sweet
So I hung him up on the door
And seeing as our homes are pretty far
And you broke my heart
I think of Cole more and more

Angel told me rather two than none
"Honestly," she said, "you're owed some fun"
Maybe best that we don't try again
Such a shame that a start means an end

Last October I got mad
You ignored our plans
So I drank with Joe all night
And two weeks on, I still felt his heat
So I turned my cheek
He mustn't think me very nice

And weekends have my hands in Molly's hair
Edging closer in the open air
Older feelings coming flooding back
No, I don't want to have to look at that

Brag and boast, as I might
I still sleep alone every night
Take a hint, let me go
Hold on harder, I don't know
Do you cast a net as wide as I?
Do you keep a list for a lonely mind?
And does it feel even colder to hold her
When you miss me?

Thomas calls me when it's still outside
And my face looks tired
But I only care a bit
I truly see him in a softer light
Still wonder if we might
But Christ, I cannot count on it

A flirt with Katie down the lens
And I pretend
To want her more than you
A stick and poke and then an awkward kiss
In a moment missed
I'd have her if I could have you too

And Eddie told me after Isla'd gone
"Honestly," he said, "you're all I want"
Laid out on my bed, I must admit
While he shook like a leaf, I had to think of it

Brag and boast, as I might
I still sleep alone every night
Take a hint, let me go
Hold on harder, I don't know
Do you cast a net as wide as I?
Do you keep a list for a lonely mind?
Does it feel even colder to hold her
When you miss me?