Tail Whip, Struggle

It took two years and change
Just to realize the pain wasn't worth it
Something was there,
But it just wasn't fair to constantly talk in circles

I know I had my own problems
I'm so far from perfect
Your insecurity outweighed my loyalty
You were so focused on this other person
That you pushed me away
That you pushed me awake

I had plans
I tried to give you all of myself
But that doesn't help
When I can't convince you
A prior connection was just another flash in the pan

It took two years and change
Just to realize the pain wasn't worth it
Something was there,
But it just wasn't fair to constantly talk in circles
It pushed me away

How is it my fault that I tried to fill a space that you left behind?
I was attempting to start a new fire in my life
An attempt, nothing more
It just didn't feel right

Later when you called and said you wanted to try
That had been left behind
So I became totally yours
I guess you couldn't believe it
Did you ever believe it?
I don't know if you did
I would hope that you did

So we started our life
We were good for a time
The issue was there but you held it inside
It came up one night
I promised and tried
To prove even more that my love's not a lie

Time moved along, it was constantly framed
Like I made a mistake
That was never the case
How can I be to blame?
For any sustain
From before I was yours
Was I going insane?
It had nothing to do with the life that we made
It pushed me away, I had to call it a day
And move on
And move on

It took two years and change
Just to realize the pain wasn't worth it
Something was there,
But it just wasn't fair to constantly talk in circles
Again and again
Again and again
You pushed me away