Renegade

I'm a renegade

Out for the truth

I will shout from the rooftops

You can find me

Hanging about down in New Cross

Or sitting it out on my stoop with my shoes off

Shaking my head

Because too many are too lost.

But you can recognize me because I'm you, mate

It's never too late to see deeper than the surface.

Trust me, there's so much more to it.

There's a world beyond this one

That creeps in when your wits have gone soft

And all your edges start shifting

I mean it

A world that it breathing

Heaving its shoulders and weeping

Bleeding through open wounds

That's why I'm grieving.

Down on my knees and I am feeling everything that I'm feeling.

So come here

Give me your hand

Because I know how to hold it.

I will write every single one of you a poem

And then I'll set them all on fire

Because I am stunned by how the light in your eyes resembles

Brightening skies.

Mate, I would fight for your life like it was mine

But I'm writing tonight.

I got a jam jar of wine

I'm rolling smokes

Spitting bars to myself with a swollen throat

Sitting out by the river catching the holy ghost

Thinking about how it feels every time you hold me close.

I'm not flesh I'm all energy

I care about genius

I don't care about celebrity

You only build them up to burn their effigies

And there's more

I can feel it so raw

And it's calling me back to before.

That's why I walk through the landscapes.

That's why I grip the mics hard until my hands shake

But they're more illuminated than the masons, mate

I stand straight faced with the mania just inches away

But I never flinch

I got ink in my veins

I don't care for the surface I care about the infinite

I carve a niche and hide within it

I lay down in the garden with the spirits

Asking pardon from the elders

They tell me:

"Child, every minute is the minute to begin it, make it broader"

But the thing that gives me strength

Oh, it brings me such torture,

Mate every single time the seasons change

I get completely overwhelmed

Fuck it I hold the helm

Like the hilt of my sword

I'm a born worker.

I'm the second best MC not enough people have heard of.

The first, that was con, I've got a thirst coming on

I'm an old soul, but I maintain a young mind

And Blake showed me

Those who don't exhibit their influence

Are only holding candles to the sunshine.

So if you want to talk just come find me

Me, I'll be on Lewisham Way watching a door melt away

Look,I used to spit these bars out to strangers on trains

I couldn't hold it down I had a brain full of flames.

I used to hang about with the alchies on the benches in the park

They used to talk about their lives

They told me why they walked out on their wives

Mate, I used to storm the stages uninvited

Far too excited,

I had something to say and I couldn't hide it.

But then I learnt about patience,

And I learnt about stamina

And every single moment stacked up

And it all added to the present

So now I keep cool and I consult the essence

And I give thanks for every blessing

But look, everything is so physical here

You know the alcoholic and the offie

Filling up his trolley until the world disappears

I'm so hungry for something sustainable

Something with truth, something unchangeable

Something like you, in your room while the rain

It falls and the windows are open

And it's splashing on my skin like the sea breeze

You can love me forever but never need me

I'm fucking sure that you can be what completes me.

So this one, is for the hopeless romantics

It's for the broken, the stranded, the pure

the puerile, the pedantic, the fearless,

the frantic, living in the belly of the beast

With the rats and the rancid and the blanketed streets

And we starve while they banquet and feast

But Banquo will rise

He's got a message for the guilty

This one's for the hard living,

Filthy, the gutter mouths.

This one's for the city that built me

that will knock me down if I don't learn right

I burn bright.

I'll turn might into meager in a blink of an eye.

So come on, meet me at the bar,

I'll raise my drink to the sky

and I will show you that you're fucking incredible.

We're not flesh, we're all energy.

I care about genius

I don't care about celebrity.

Don't give a shit about the hype

I really care about integrity.

I mean you only build them up to burn their effigies, anyway.

And me, I'm getting closer to my essence every day.

Renegade.