Ten

I promised Colin I'd keep writing
And that's the only promise I've kept
But I have no regrets, like your empty mailbox?
It doesn't bother me, not at all

And I promised you I'd come visit soon
Guess I should've made the trip
But money's tight as rope and time too
And you know how it goes better than anyone

There isn't ever much of anything we need or think we do
So I don't feel bad, I don't feel bad
And somewhere you cut me out
Fall in love to rinse your mouth
But it doesn't bother me at all

I promised Colin I'd take off to you soon
On an old deck in Louisville, KY
Four stories up, six AM and ten deep
While they were sleeping
And I said, "keep me in check, friend." And he tried
But I couldn't be

And that small window closed, and I never really kept writing either, just
Stared downward at the page most times or thought about it real hard
And there must be something missing in me
That she's there and I'm still here because that's messed up
But I don't feel bad about it

And somewhere you cut me out
Fall in love to rinse your mouth
But it doesn't bother me at all

I have tried hard to stay hopeful in the moments
They cut ropes to set you free
I have always tried to point the finger elsewhere
This time it points to me

But it doesn't bother me at all

Each chance to lock arms, to lie long in locked eyes
And I failed to let go, to cut ties with my life
But I'm torn, and reborn, see I died when you left
But each word since that day was your name from my chest

I am afraid
But it doesn't bother me at all