Clown Car

I see you again with your friends
I'm empty-handed tonight
Dressed down in my shirt and slacks
You still find a way to make me feel ashamed
It's alright
I'll be gone soon anyway
In the bar my backs to the door
And I'm sitting down
When the older men turn around
Big cigars in their mouth
The smoke fills my nose
I want to spit it out
My lungs are weak
They know what they want with me
And I want to leave
So I go to the car
Push back the door
And let it out by myself
I'm alone
That's what scares me the most
Company isn't hard but
I don't take it seriously enough

Forgetting to eat, forgetting to sleep
Forgetting mysеlf
Forgetting what I need

Oh-oh
Oh-oh

I'm not made for your hip or your sleeve
I'm hеre and that's how I like it to be
Everything is intentional if you paid attention to it
I'm not here to behave
I'm so tired of that shit

But still I'm alone
And that's what scares me the most
Company isn't hard but
I don't take it seriously enough
Forgetting to eat, forgetting to sleep
Forgetting myself
Forgetting what I need
Forgetting what I am
Forgetting what I said I would be
Forgetting what I said I
Would be

Oh-oh
Oh-oh

Think it makes sense for us
As if everything else wasn't enough
You're too greedy and too picky for me

Let me take things slowly
Let me take things slowly
Let me take things slow
Let me be alone
Let me be alone
But still I'm alone

And that's what scares me the most
Company isn't hard but
I don't take it seriously enough

Forgetting to eat, forgetting to sleep
Forgetting myself
Forgetting what I need
Forgetting what I am
Forgetting what I said I would be
What I said I would be
What I said I would be