Now What?

goosebumps on the back of my neck
when I looked up and you were there
sod's law, then I saw
it was just some guy who had your hair

and just like that I felt my heartbeat coming down in real time
I kinda wished it had been you

six months and I haven't thought once
about all of the things that drove me out
your ghost has been cooking me toast
and picking my socks up off the ground

and just like that the air has changed and so have we
I am completely fucking free - now what?

there'll be a day you're not even slightly mine
one for the ages, it's a tale as old as time
maybe I will watch you walking down the aisle
and think about the time when I was hanging on for life
for dear life

1 year of biting my tongue
letting you go, getting it done
so funny how the time can fly
when you try to run

and just like that I missed my chance to call you up
you've only gone and fell in love
now what? (now what?)

there'll be a day you're not even slightly mine
one for the ages, it's a tale as old as time
maybe I will cook for you and your new wife
and think about the time when I was hanging on for life
for dear life

try to learn and find the meaning
take a bath in all the grieving
new tattoo, ego death
find someone to take to bed

trick yourself, call your bluff
it's not the same but close enough
and now we play a lottery
of all the people we could be
whatever you're meant to feel
whatever you're meant to feel
you'll feel eventually
you'll feel eventually