Escapism. (live at Metropolis)

Sleazin' and teasin', I'm sittin' on him
All of my diamonds are drippin' on him
I met him at the bar, it was 12 or something
I ordered two more wines 'cause tonight, I want him

A little context if you care to listen
I find myself in a shit position
The man that I love sat me down last night
And he told me that it's over, dumb decision
And I don't wanna feel how my heart is rippin'
In fact, I don't wanna feel, so I stick to sippin'
And I'm out on the town with a simple mission
In my little black dress and this shit is sittin'

Just a heart broke bitch, high heels six inch
In the back of the nightclub, sippin' champagne
I don't trust any of these bitches I'm with
In the back of the taxi sniffin' cocaine
Drunk (calls), drunk (texts), drunk (tears), drunk (sex)
I was lookin' for a man who's on the same page
Now it's back to the intro, back to the bar
To the Bentley, to the hotel, to my old ways

'Cause I don't wanna feel how I did last night
I don't wanna feel how I did last night
(Doctor, doctor), anything, please
(Doctor, doctor), have mercy on me
Take this pain away
(You're askin' me my symptoms, doctor I don't wanna feel)

Toke this joint how I'm blowin' this steam
Back to my ways like 2019
Not twenty-four hours since my ex did
I got a new man on me, it's about to get, oh (sweaty)
Last night really was the cherry on the cake
Been some dark days lately and I'm findin' it (cripplin')
Excuse my state, I'm as high as your hopes
That you'll make it to my bed, get me hot and (sizzlin')
If I take a step back to see the glass half-full
At least it's the Prada two-piece that I'm (trippin' in), hah
And I'm already actin' like a dick, know what I mean?
So you might as well (stick it in)

Just a heart broke bitch, high heels six inch
In the back of the nightclub, sippin' cham- (pagne)
I don't trust any of these bitches I'm with
In the back of the taxi sniffin', oh (cocaine)
Drunk calls, drunk (texts), drunk (tears), drunk (sex)
I was lookin' for a man who's on the same page
Now it's back to the intro, back to the bar
To the Bentley, to the hotel, to my old ways

'Cause I don't wanna feel how I did last night
I don't wanna feel how I did last night
Doctor, doctor, anything, please
(Doctor, doctor), have mercy on me and take this pain away
(You're askin' me my symptoms, doctor I don't wanna feel)
I don't wanna feel (What?, What?)

('Cause I don't wanna feel), oh, (like I felt last night)
(I don't wanna feel like I felt last night)
(Be at peace with the things you can't change)
Last night
(I'll be naked when I leave and I was naked when I came, yeah)
You're askin' me my symptoms, doctor, I don't wanna feel, yeah

I don't wanna feel like I felt last night
I don't wanna feel how I did last night, oh
Doctor, doctor, anything, please
Have mercy on me
You're askin' me my symptoms, doctor
I don't wanna (feel)

I don't wanna feel how I did last night
I don't wanna feel how I did last night
Wanna feel, wanna feel how I did last night
Yeah!

Drums, hm

Huh, hm

Lipstick smudged like modern art
I don't know where the f- I am or who's drivin' the f- car
Speeding down the highway sippin'
Mixing pills with the liquor 'cah these feelings
I left everyone I love on read, uh-huh
Spilling secrets to the stranger in my bed, uh
I remember nothing so there's nothing to regret (uh-uh)
Other than this four-four kick drum poundin' in my head, hm-mm